Last Letter Before I Leave ~

- Dear Ex ,

How have you been lately ? Just want you to know . I see you're living well and happily .
You have brought differences not like before . I'm relieved to see your breathing spaces are wide .
This year is 2012 and yet it is SPM year . How are your studies been doing ?
Haha , Sure everythings fine .

I've changed tuition days . So i maybe can't see how you've been doing . Past months , January , February and March was the only time i can peek on you . I rather stay that tuition for 3 months alone just to see you . I see your friend brought the old you back on form .
Smiling , Joking and Serious studying . Hmmmm ~ Thats you .
I Love to stay alone behind and look at the front . Trying to focus on lessons and hope nobodys sitting with me . Now i wont be on that schedule , i've changed to thursday BM and monday BI .
Don't worry .  I know my position , i will hide or disappear myself if i saw you .

I know you've been living well ,thanks for inviting me to join the methodist church before . But i cant , because i've my own reason .

You see ~ Since you participate that group .. Your relationship with Nicholas has been close neither you knew many new friends too . Such as Cheah Jing Ho , Zhi Ying etc .
I'm honest to say i'm glad that you never forget me even what've happend on us .
Hence , You sure did a good job this year . You changed alot. PEACE ~ =)

Sorry for been so no manners to talk to you last time .
I'm really sorry to have broken everything .
Sincerely i wanna reveal that , I really now changed too . I know how to think properly and make my own decision well . We haven't talk for half years . Many things you missed up .
But still , i'm holding the right place in my life . I started to mix friends that study well and organize some good programmes . I love to talk to them . Formost older friends , please ...you may know what i'm saying . But i'm not PAI KIA .
Now i start by at school sitting alone , and do what i want ... Nobody cares about my problem . So i can concentrate . Nobody disturb me anymore ; such as ... calling me out for tea , go TS watching movies and hanging in cyber cafe's . I blow their invitation . I screwed them up . That makes me like "invincible" infront their eyes . Good friends last time , Now turn "invincible" everywhere they saw me , they do like they see nohin' - Nothin' . Haha ~ Wherever i sitting alone , there wont be anyone beside me . Coz they say i'm acting bitchy .
Ony Jeffz ( not juz jeff)  know how i'm feeling . He once told me .. " King Han , Stop EMO d ~ You this fai chaii come lets go hang out , maybe your mood will be better " I smiled . At least theres someone know my appearance .
Plus , Our muii muii ~ ( Maxx )
Always got time will chat with me . I didn't tell so much what happend about me and you . I just help to accompany her whenever she's not in the mood . I bu she de see her moody . She very stupid ,Always think negatively . But still , i won't let her think negative . I wll help what i can ~ Her emotion , is still a job to handle . I'm holding a name as a BROTHER .

I'll tell you what she is like .... Everytime she no mood she will come and tell me . I also wish to know why she moody . Not fan , is i sim tia see she like that . She also had the same problem like me . But her's is better . She's not that risky . She's just grudges to see her future . Everytime if got go out with her , She sure want belanja me . I dunno why =.=" . Naughty . That day "chut iu" somemore shock me , buy 100 plus for me indeed i already got a bottle of  Barlie which my mum do . But still i drink the 100 plus . Muii ~ Thanks ya . I owe you a dozen .
This word THANKS really is qualified to tell her , with no one cares me like you did before .. now appeared a little girl which named as my sister helps me , comfort me and advised me . I really appreciate the appearance of this little girl.
Muii ~ Thank you . Gambatehh at life . Ah Gorr beside you !! :P

Skip the roller coaster ...

Dear ex ,
I wish that all hurts that i hurt you are just adopted wound . I hope its not that deep . But i know its a little to late to say not deep . If not because of me ... Till now you wont block me till earth touches sun .
I know what i should do , But heart beat is not as fast a your legs running .
Now i say ... I'm Sorry .
Sorry for my everything . For no manners , no controlling temper and outrageous behavior .
I will be taking years to heal my hurt . I'm not joking and not pretending . What i want you to know is ~

- There's not gonna be anyone that can replace you .

Though i'm wasting my time telling my innocence . But first i want you to know that ...
I've been making this APOLOGIZE for six months .
Since the day we broke , I started by crying and making silly things .
But on January , I try to fight my weakness and defend my hard days till now , I've complete . But for me its still late .
But whatever i do for you .... I'll be doing it seriously .


Pei Shan ~
我不应该怎么对你，每个男生都会酱说话分时.... 但我不会开口认错 .
可是我是真的很想说 “我不舍得你”

On The day you left Taiping for Singapore , You already know i will hate you leaving .
But you have no choice because thats your family desicion .
The day when you took me to Sitiawan with Kenny. You told me you'll be leaving to Singapore . On that time , i get scrumbled so you din see why i change topic talking with you?
I was injured by the news . But slowly in my mind , i told myself  "She was just joking,Forget it"
This how i kept myself to avoid that injury confront my work .
Your sis Annie told me you left Taiping already when working , I open my eyes wide and turn other place .
And change topic talking to Annie . She smiled at me and said "她会回来的啦，干嘛？想她了啊？"
I said no . Then say "她不用回来跟好!" i use this to cover from people knowing my sadness .
Then i go to the toilet and cry .
My eyes get red when i came back to work , my friend ask ...  " Your eyes red,din have enough sleep? "
She always comfort me and accompany me since then . Till one day , you don't know ... She gets too close with me , I just realize ~  So form that day on , i doesn't wanna talk to her anymore .

Then one day , you came back ... You sms me , "Get ready to see your ugly loupo bar "
Annie jie ~ Came downstairs and told me ... You were coming to find me at The Store .
I said " Oooh , I Know d " . Then i ask the girl to come with me and ask her be beside me .
I was pretending you will see me talking with girl you will how ? How i know ~ You din saw me .
Annie  come downstairs for recess time , she mainly talked to me that did i saw you just now . I said " I dunno , I'm working "

The reason i do this is because i want people to know that i'm happy working so people doesn't know i actually miss you so deeply .


Christmas is coming ...I prepared a present after my salary was out . I find a jacket that suits you all around The Store. I asked Annie before that what present you like the most ?
I told her i want to buy you a Sony Ericsson X2 Mini Pro worth rm599 . Annie stricly scold me. I get shocked . She ask me not to buy such worthy and expensive present . Present will be worthy if you are honest , The honest will make the present even expensive she said . I told her i just want to have the same level as her friend. All your friend are using touchscreen phone , so i mention you a touchscreen phone .
Annie says again that , she doesn't need to have the same quallity as her friend ~ She say your phone was a gifted by your late father . She says you love using your current phone.

Nevermind , Wait when i'm big I'll get you a better present I confronted !

Its Christmas day , I've been waiting so long . All my friends knew the present i bought even Annie . I was so excited to give you .
Soon , I sms your mum . She says you were at KL . *My phone droped* I was so shocked . It was just like heart broken . I comfort myself and say ~ Its okay . I can give her this present  next week . =')
Annie came to me when work time is over ... She urgently came to me . " Hey , Pei shan is in the car ! Go find her and give her your present " I walked with Annie on the corner of the road . I saw your car , I saw your mum and bro together with a pretty lady siting inside the car . If it wasn't you then who was it ?!!!
I walked away and told Annie " Goodbye , See You tomorrow "
She replied " Aiyor ~ Don't Sad . Haha. People don't want you anymore "
I get into my dad's car. Rub my eyes . And hope i'am dreaming .
Back home then .... I called you for countless times . I get mad , I threw the phone , Continuosly phone you again . Finally , You make a moved.
You sms me " My auntie know our relationship, For now ... We don't contact first bar"
Then i want to wish you Merry Christmas so i want you to pick up the phone.
Ok.
You've picked up.
You talked like i'm bothering you and you sounds like killing someone .
You told me a horror sentence " Stop till here , We break d . Don't Find me anymore ... Sorry "* Hang up the phone *

I'm dead . My tears came out by itself ....
My heart told my brain " Its over boy ~ Its over "

Days later , I suffer high fever and dried cough.
My eyes get blur so easy . Not saying how pity i am please.
Because i didn't have enough sleep at all and always drink beer so much . So i've been sick for a month till January ends.

辛 苦 .

-
I still never give up and doesn't believe that news .
I still fought hard to find you , even you argue to me . I still wont give up .
Its ok if you don't wanna reply my messages but just let me write you something on message. I don't care if you act like you're not there .
But my words are worth more than my life .

You told me a word that kills me . Its like a sword nip in me .
The word 烦 .


You know what ? I still don't care .
You won't give up no matter how evil your mouth is .
I find supports from friends , they give me energy to carry on.
Kai Xin came to accompany me ,she told me to explain everything....
I cant hold on , once she ask me to explain... The first move , My tears fell to my lapfirst.
I keep on crying on the phone . I'm so weak . She say " Release it all , cry bar~ Don't scare I'm here "
So , i told her ~I mafan her to ask me to tell you that i'm sorry. Till then so many people asked you how we could have broke... by then Nicholas told me too. "If you din cry for so deep and so long i say you have puppy relationship, Don't cry ~ One day , she will understand you... Just wait "
So many friends give me fate. They comfort me, i get better and better when months have flew .
I'm learning to walk again ~
In the end , your gun finally reload a bullet .
You block me on facebook. I cant see you anymore ...I told my friend , he say he wanna help me . I don't know how he help ~ But he hack your FB and add me back then he sms me told me " gao tim , i use her fb add you back d . Kayao " I thought i feel better now , but seems it makes your fire even bigger .
So in school i find my friend , without talking first I scold him and punch him. We fought till forces the other friends to seperate us fighting away . I get hurt and angry so much . Even i fought hard and loses . My friend ambushes me " Its you who ask me to help you ! And now i help you , how dare you came and punch me !" I say sorry and drive myself away.

I Know i lied you much . But what i lied ? I worry you will too care and scold me. So i lied . I wanna work . Why i wanna work ? To get money ? Why i wanna get money ? Cuz i want go out with you . I thought you wont know , but Zhang Rui tell you that he saw me work .
Because i don't wanna make you worried i will shut my mouth and wont tell you .
Then , i lied you again .. I told you i wont go tuition so don't wait for me . I thought you will guai guai study at tuition , but i still can figure out 1 day without you . So i still wanted to go for tuition . One day i din see you ? Please.... I Cant. I Must see you everyday.

I get sia pai ~
My name Leon became worst . Nobody respect me and wanna talk to me anymore.
Bythen only few ... One of them are Maxx , Rui Zhan and few more.
They show me a living path . Ask me to not give up in life . If you really love her than you must be PATIENT . - Yes boss , I'm waiting . =) I can wait how long too .

And you see now , The one you love the most before is now here .
Obviously , is my fault .
I hope to change what i am .
I regret what i do ?
Please believe me one more time .
I'm your 8th . And the last one .
I'm the first one to make you wearing a wedding ring .
And i'm the first will die with you .
Please , will you forgive me ?






After you see this video i've made .
I wanna tell you that thru our six months love .
I've learn alot and cherish love even deeper .
I sometimes din eat and even sleep late just to find some ideas .
I've taken totally six months also to complete this video .
Without hard work , There will be no success .

"我是真心的弄给你，不是特地的弄给你 "

Pei Shan ~ I hope you will return to me .
I will give you time , but dearest ... I will work hard to stay alive .



Friends that gives me faith , Thanks For Your trust . I will remember you guys ~
Notably :

Nicholas - Believe me , Chase her back . I know you two love very deep.
Maxx - Very hard to find such good eh girl .i dun hope u both hav anythg happen cuz u both deserve the best. Kayao !! .D'nie - Don't think so much k ? Slowly talk to her don't rush her she will be more fan .
Suki - Don't hurt yourself if you wanna hurt yourself then you don't deserve to be with her !
Lyanne - Its better you take her as best friend .
Yumi - 翰翰！爱情不是无所谓的，你要确定你的真爱是要给谁...真爱只给一个人不是两位.
Annie - 现在你勤劳的读书先，再来讲paktor ~
Wylip - I dunwan see you like this . Now you look like weak . You ok d then come back talk to me .
Louis - You break ? How come ? Last time i see you sweet sweet de mar , why suddenly break ?
Catherine - Wei le anything , ANYTHING you will listen to her ?! Tell me you can DO IT !
Sean Hui - Give her time ~
Loh Sunrise - Find new one lahh ~
Rui Zhan - 你只弄自己siapai如果你追到她，她很你的，伤你的，排气你的～难道你没想过你的痛苦？
Jenise Goh - Ah Han ~ You love your ex too deep le , i know you fang bu xia her de ~
Rui Hong - 我也单身～ 我们一起单身不好咩？
CK Jun - Ah Han ~ ni ok ma ?
Weng Khai - Bro , 爱情不能永远的～为了爱一个人你会去自杀啊？！S*hai !
Yee Wah ~ 我能帮你，但这是你的期於. 要誠實,自己来比较好 .
Adrian Chuah - 不要给我听到，你会输给爱.
Ahh Kam - Break jiu break , you break bu qi ? want go do stupid thing ? i never heard like this before .Please laa , wake up . People hate you d. You cannot love her if she hate you.
Fmly Kai - 去追回她，你的膽很感人.
Ah Yang - 虽然我不会爱，但我会珍惜有爱.
Jonathan Chuah - True Love Is Not easy to find , once you create true love . You will learn how to love deeper
Carson CT - Be Brave , Stay Ahead . Gambateh .
Ivan Lam - I support who you love , if you love her then go find her before its too late !
Exiled Hao - Harr ? You break d ? Haha , I know ~ You want to fu he ... You sure is regret d ...
LiQii - You din scare siapai ? You such a brave boy . I'm proud of you . Must remember good luck.
Mizuz Shan - Why will like dat ? Tell me what happend
Ying Ying - 分手干嘛要去刻手？你好笨哦！
Ah Keong ~ 走, 喝酒
Rhymiie - Love Is Easy But To Forget Is Hard .
Jeffz I'Dontgiveadamn - If you fu he edy , remember . Don't repeat your mistakes . You wont have a final chance anymore .
Farhana - Aku baru jer nak tanye pasai kak ipar . So i guess you wont be fine now ? Sorry to ask you this question .
Janice - Oiii , Kns lu . Stop emo d laa ~ Past just let it past .
亮少 - 你不怕给她讨厌死？
Yip Wayne - Love is never gonna be forever. First of all , Men are the first to be blamed .
No Entry - 做么你不会好好的爱她？你现在后悔是没用的
Hong Tian - 看你的伤我也会跟着不爽，别伤心了～你休息先吧
Zs Leong - She's not an easy people to handle , mistakes are left to you .
Sad Bee - Thats why i choose to wait , i didn't trust love to easy . I will wait for my true love .
Wilson - Don't  give up . I hope you and her will last forever .
Andy Looi - Sorry because last time . I won't disturb your gf anymore. I promise . Lets be friends bacl...
Elise Yan - You must trust her ~ Her happiness are in your hand . Don't forget she just need your love not need your money .
Pei Ting ( My sis ) - Han... Suan le ba~ Make this as apart of  your lesson . Next time show me teh one you love .Tell me before you start paktor . I Don't want see you get hurt . I believe she's the one inside your heart only .
Hui San - I jealous your love with her . Your Hate Is Your Love , Your Love Is Your Love. She's not your girlfriend but is your wife . Give her time to clam down , she will decide soon because She Love You Very Much.

Thanks all my friends , very thanks so much . I will always keep this in heart .
I will 加油！！！！

March

Thanks For All My Friends And Families For The Birthday Wishes.
I Took this suprise wishes as my best birthday presents .
I will remember this year date. =)

For me , turned 18 looks old .
Yes its true , last time when i was 15 . My neighbours children accidentally kicked their soccer ball onto my house. They saw me and asked me to help them pass it over.
You know by how ?
erm....T_T
"Pak Cik , Tolong saya ambil bola itu . Maaf yer, tak sengaja"

Lol , Ini budak sudah hurt wa.... ToT

Arghhh !
You panggil saya abng saya boleh tolong u lar , panggil saya pak cik .... z. 我接受不到！

Haha , anyways .
Now I've grown bigger . And Should have step into the world of maturity .

What has pass had been passed .
And whats now aims for the future .
Snap it out ,
What i'm happy about today is...
Probably wishes from friends all over today.
Haha ,First of all :-

- Suki & Lok Yen . Siao zha bor ~ TQ . xD

- 瑞展 ,鸿 & 强 .一起淋雨也蛮爽下 xD

- To ma lil' sis , Maxxy . Enjoy your days at Singapore . Time for you to grow up now . Dun em0 d. Whenever you came back , Just Remember to poked me .Haha. 

- A lovely messages from a lover . Thanks so much. I Love You Bestie . I'll be sure to be your better boy transforming to a man . =)

- And Not to forgotten, Those who Makes my hp vibrates like crazy Thanks too . haha

And now may i end , 1/3/2012 Peacefully .

With a Good sleep.

Goodbye 17 , Hello 18 !

Nitez world . <3 =D


banyak celaka . xD
My sis made me a picture of a all growed up me . LIKES !
Haha . Thanks sista , but next time is your turn.

Regret .

After weeks crying and hurts .

I realize the correct and wrong in my life.

Loving You is the hardest thing i ever forget .

Leaving You Is the wise thing i've made .

When I'm with you , The most we had is also the hurt .

You cause me into trouble always .

You always treat me like a poor dog !

Are you human ?!

I believe last time you truely love me.

" LAST TIME " .

Now ?

Tolong ~ I HATE YOU !

I'm mature than you . I know how to think and make my own decision .

Past weeks , I really couldnt live without you .

Thanks for your care , your love and protection .

You were the best and the worst in my life .

I will try to hate you deeper .

Because of all the things happens and the way you treat me .

By how you show me love ? By Lie .

Always LIE LIE LIE LIE ! You beh sienz ?!

Past weeks , I always sms you non-stop till now .

Eventhough YOU WONT EVEN REPLY ME !

They say i'm crazy ?

Why ? Because you make me crazy !

You suddenly avoid me , and suddenly say break .

I'm confused ,what happen ?

Break me without reason ! You ..... GUO-FEN !

Also not to forget , In our love guo fen also many. =']

You really good in hurting someone.

Form start i love you i really make you as a real wife .

Talk to your mum properly , care you so much and always be  with you.

But think larh ~ Do you treat human as human before ?

I sms you non-stop because i miss you also because I LOVE YOU .

But it seems you're fooling me.

Now i can really see in your heart i'm a toy.

爽爽爱人，爽爽不爱人 !!

I keep sms you , nothing happen no matter what i say .

Because you dont understand how much i love you ~

Now love you ? Sorry , You are not qualified anymore .

Finally , i understand your love . You got reply . You reply what ? You say me 烦 . ='D

You always hurt me and lie me , I got 1 time say you 烦 before ?

Hey ! Think plssss .

Hurt eh not you is ME !

All my friend say me sohai and crazy go sms someone who doesn't deserve to be inlove.

Even your sister say , she guo fen d , leave her , she will hou hui later.

I hope it is !

When you hou hui , PLEASE don't touch me again .

I don't know who are you !

I'm so stupid to love you .

I can say , I love dog better than love you bah ? =')

My happiness with you just 1 day inside 6 months .

I make it clear , I not interested in you anymore !

HURT ME EH PEOPLE !

I shouldnt believe your words , I should believe your love independence .

All the step i took is wrong .

I really love you but you dont .

I see it clear our story equals to a game .

I ask you to give me final chance , haha !

Why must i say that thing ? I don't know why .

Make me angry eh is you but why must i begged you ?

Regret Regret ~ Really regret .

I wont say that again .

My Happiness is With The girl from Sepetang called Tan Hui San .

Her love is 101% better than you .

We have a proper love suddenly all broken because of A girl called Tiffany Loo Pei Shan.

I'm really proud that your friend say .... You Rampas people eh  BF .

Haha ~ Its true .

Accept the fact .

Hui San got do you ? she got hurt you ? she got touch tiok you ?

She pun tak kenal you lar ~ She know you are just my sis. Damn sis ? haha

Be sis i also don't want , Be friend i also don't want .

I don't want you in my life anymore .

Why i keep you in my heart ? because of the memories we have .

I really cant forget .

Being with you really make me commit suicide before .

I even drank alcohol to kill myself when we broke before.

Now i don't want to touch it ! Die because you ? Tolong ~ Puihhh !!!!

Miss you until make me sick .

2 weeks fever , cough and flu.

Everyday staring at the phone wait your message .

Funny ? Looks like hell . I regret doing that .

We broke on christmas , that means i will hate christmas forever.

Now you show the world you like dai lou ~

No need reply me , no need see me , no need talk to me & many things .

Eh , don't beh sia pai .

Who want sms you ? who want meet you ? who want talk to you ?

Geli ~

I talk to walls more fun .

Buy so many things for you , so tam you like a daughter , Do so many things wei le you .

I hope all this never appear in my life .

I will promise you that i don't have this kind of gf before.

Listen to me .... I just have two .

1.. Kelly

2.. Hui San

JUST TWO .

If can i want 1 ex enough , i wanna continue my happiest life like last time .

I will stop playing facebook after that .

Because you know it before .

The way i love you is different with the way i love her .

She's more like a dai ka jie for me.

You are more like a maid for me now !

Talking about you really waste my time .

Hui san ~

I wanna explain everything ... because when we broke i never spoke about the reasons .

Now may i ?

-

Sorry for trusting my own gan jie .

I shouldnt get so near to that kind of people .

I'm worry about your life after we broke so i ask tiffany go add you and see your life .

There's one reason also she hate about me , That is when i buy the phone w800i , i speacialy keep my old phone k550i . Why i keep my k550i because inside was all the message from you . I read it sometimes to cool me down .

And i use other account to look at your life sometimes .

I'm sorry that i've hurt you last time . I admit its my fault , You may hate me .

I explain to my sista Maxx Vexx and Fenna Farhana who cares me alot .

They say , Loving Hui San is the only way to be human .

You love Tiff ? Do make it as a spare tayar in your life , to cover the pain and make that 6 months as the time for Hui San to rest .

Now you're free to pick your own choice . =')

My lengzai bro , Rhymiie and Wayne also gave a unexpected advice .

Rhymiie say , If the girl chase you , Thats not your true love . Your true love is ot be with the girl you choose.

Wayne says , If thegirl is the first one to commit Forever infront you that means your love never last long , the real forever is when YOU told your girlfriend and make her believe you .

But bro ... Forever is always FAKE . In love Theres no forever.

There is .... Both parties need to stay BELIEVE . In love , believe is the most important .

Hui San ~ I dunno what you think now ... But what i know is ... I know you love to see blog .

So everyday i think of every words i wanted to say in a piece of paper and combine all to write in my blog .

Sorry if it take so long .

And Sorry to disturb you Single Life. =')

I know you may have boyfriend now .

Hope both of you stay happy happy .

What i should get has already done .

Nowdays i've less friend and get many bad lucks .

After reading this , i hope you understand .

I never hate you before .

If i hate you why should i find you even me and that fella still together ?

Many lengzai find you luurh ~

You suka lengzai but i'm not.

You love to add lengzai but i'm not so i add you .

I add you because i'm free now , No one will scold me to find you .

There's still many things to say , just i don't know how to start .

Anyways ,

Thanks to Yong Wei scold me and thanks to Tiffany give me hurts .

Now I'm stronger to face anything .

Proud To Meet You On .

2010 .

And Proud to be your ex start from 18 August 2010 .

Be happy yarh . =)

THE END .

*This Photo i still keeping it .=3
*Edited by you . pai kua , haha

My Story After Christmas .

25/12/2011
- The Day My Love Ended . ='|

The first thing is always the tears. i know i've hurt you much.
I'm sorry .
Saying sorry is too late i think ? =')
What has done has done .
I wouldnt have a rubber to rub those dirts.
I know i will just have to leave it and accept it.
But i cant.... Its hard.

I wanted you to know that forgetting you is hard.
Because i never love someone such this deep.
Its deeper than an ocean and its brighter than the sun.

Haha . Flashing back the stories we created. =')
surely : 08062011 . 2.52am .
The day i founded my wife. The day we started .
Its a great night to found my blind fate.
Eventhough its hard to forget it can please you that may i remember it forever ?
I'm proud that you may have forget it ,,, But sorry , i'm not that strong as you .
I wanted you to know that the way i love you is different than the explanation of the word I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU looks simple but its hard to pronounce .

The first day we stay on tution in BM Maran's = I sat behind you .
You asked me to come near you . I'm not dare because i'm worried the teacher might scold.
So i decide to sit behind you .
You care me too much , that makes you tear a piece of cute lil paper and wrote something on it.
I Still kept it.  ='D It says " HATE THAT I MISS YOU "
Its funny . We chit chat on the old style , passing papers together .
I kinda free so i lanc give ma pal see what i've written . He laughed and say "Haiz , Now eh people" Haha! buex ~ =P

When its 6.30pm .Tuition is over .
We've gone downstairs and pak we geh tor at Legend Inn back door.
You mum came late every Monday.
Make me worry you this 傻瓜 ~ ='( I accompany you till your mum arrive.
Cuz thats ma job !
I grab your hand tight because i never wanted to let it go .
And back home you sms in and texted " So xing fu you hold tight my hand ,I really cant live without you "
And yeah girl , you know what ? me too ~ =')
I still remember the day we kissed on that Legend Inn back door weeks after.
We've got complain . And got scold together . Sorry , To get you into some problems . =(
 Aisekk~ wo ask we too sweet ? xD
I asked my friend drove me back to the tuition and see weather you're okay.
You said you're fine . I'm not sure Honey .
When i step there , you were gone ~
I saw your car....I asked my friend to chase on . Finally, i cut pass your car and see your smiles.
Reach my friend house , I quickly text you without thinking twice.
And took a space to apologize , and even tears ,
Dear , I'm Sorry . ='(

Snap that out , another criteria ~
I know we've met quarrels kinda more than happiness .
I promise you happiness and not fighting each other ! I failed !
What you said was the truth . "You gave me tears more than smiles"
I realize. I was a Pure Failure .

But everything can change if you're willing ! Yes ! I'm Willing To Change For You !
But its seems i never see another sign of chance again.
You scold me on the last phone call.
" Final chance has been given , you can never seek it anymore."

Leon ! Face the truth ! But Girl ... I hide from the truth . I'm not dare to face it.

I'm hurt when the day we broked . You close the phone call .
I repeatedly called thru . It doesnt work .
Finally what i get was a message . "你很烦!"
I smiled . haha ~ why ?
Because i finally make you hate me .
I take the wrong step . I shouldnt keep text you and called you.
The reason i do this because I MISS YOU !

I cant believe my eyes that we've broke in a sudden .
Everybody knows we're the sweetest among.
All shook and shout .
" WHAT?! YOU'VE BROKE ? "
" Cant believe  you still love her even she doesnt wants you "
" Stop disturbing her , She's Not Yours anymore ... People doesnt want you now .. How ? "
" Forget her , bring back Our old Leon "
" Wake up , Girls are millions in these world ! "
" What happend ? Calm down . Talk to me "
" Are You Okay ? Forget the past . Let it fly "

All these words i hope it never appears .
Because IT HURTS MORE THAN A WOUND .

I know you hurt deeper than me before when we were together .
We quarrel 7 times. 4 is your break .3 Is From Me.
I shouldnt say that .
I never wanted to break .
The reason i break is to make you scared and so you may change your attitude by stop lie on me.
But the person who lied Is me.
I told you i wont find Hui San when we were together.
I find her the day we last quarrel.
Then when we get back , i doesnt wanted to lie you. I dunno how to lie.
I tell the truth . " I find her to calm myself down "
Sorry girl . I know it hurts you again. I admit Its a LIE ='(

But I never Lie About YOUR LOVE !
I cherish the love ! Its important for me ! I love you more than a family.
I Treasure everything We have in my HEART,
It never leaves me no matter what happen.

Till now , I still remember what we do and says.

Number 1 , You hate me because i couldnt accept your mum.
Its because I'm not mature to meet up your mum , I'm always speechless
If theres a chance , I will prove you that she will smile when meet me up .

Number 2 , When i outta mood i simply scold people . At that time You appeared . Sorry ! I cant control my temper and my rudeness came out .
I know you couldnt accept my rudeness . When angry rude words must come out eh ? I know I know . I musnt . Angry just say angry . No need L****** sana L****** sini ! Shit you Leon !!!!!

Number 3 , Is Racing , I always race motor and dont care what you said.
Until i make myself "Wanted In Pokok Asam " . Polis searching for my motor. Now ?
Enggai lurhz . Motor hilang d.... Now buy new motor . I got guai ... But kena polis again because my exhaust . Sorry okay ? I shouldnt race anymore ! I QUIT ! I know its dangerous ! I KNOW ! I KNOW ! Damn it ! I REALLY UNDERSTAND YOU CARE I GOT INTO ACCIDENT !

Number 4 , Is The Way I treat you . You get angry when I close your calls and Doesnt allow you to talk to males. BUT ... As a bf , you know we boys hate to see their gf talk so much to the other boys , I snatch you ID and hides it from you so you wont talk to them . It really happens that , Alex Ng Wey Hern Suddenly loves you back ! You see ! Thats why i told you NOT to talk to boys ! ='( 

Is that my mistake too ?!!
Sorry . I shouted. I cant stand it.
Plus , I know you loves to get LIKES from friends . You want more ... I gave but I doesnt support you accepting boys add. I promise you before ... I know .
" You want accept jiu accept bah but dont talk to them yar "
Finally i broke it , and say " CNT CNT CNT ! NO boys means NO Boys ! "

Number 5 , I doesnt allow you to wear shorts .
Why ? Because everytime you wear shorts people who pass by look down straight to your legs . Its Uncormfatable ! I HATE IT ! HAMSAP EYES !
I really cant accept it. This is not a fashion show . Its humans privacy! I hate them! Babi ! Hamsap Mia orang !
Arh jie ~ *Annie* Also scold you , She asked me not to allow you wear shorts .
She say x ngam you . wear also wear too short d. Cannot harap . She throw a fierce face to me and say " You must tell Pei Shan to stop wearing shorts , not banned her from wearing , if wanted to wear too.. dont wear too short . That short sangat eh , keep and wear inside house enough"
I obey her.
You also promised me to stay away from wearing shorts .
I heard... But you lied me many times .Wear shorts you can beh tong ? ><!
Even go singapore , your biao jie uploaded the photo .
Give me see tiok you wear shorts , I straight dissapointed and angry aswell.
I really wanted to scold but i'm afraid of scolding you too much .
because my temper.
So i doesnt wanna scold so fierce and took your short haired photo and upload it.
Remember ~ I dont care your photo , I care your people .
I dont care your hair , Hair can grow ...
I cut short d... And i hated it too.. But this is style , i can still change . =')
You still liang like always.

Haiz ~

SAYA SUDAH MELAMPAU ~ !
='(

Everything I say I know because I really Understand .
I'm big enough to make my own decision and Think about other parties.
I'm 17 . Seventeen Not Seven years old anymore.
My name is LEE KING HAN not a children anymore.

Add on what i do too .
I took your short haired pic and upload without you knowing it..
At last you scold me .

Few hours later , I took it down .
I know , what i did is too much.
I delete it and Put on my favorite picha of you.

Your message came in , You asked me see the picha Maxxy gave me.
AWAITS i go.

Days later , Maxxy shows it.
I was happy , You finally have new pic.
So i kept it inside my Profile Picture,

On Christmas , Things Started to change...
I bought a Jacket and A Key-Chain for you.
As my sincere gift for X-Mas .
It turns upside down on night.
I saw you in the car outside The Store with you family.
Your mum says you were in KL ?
KL ? =')
What i see in my eye is you in the car talking with your mum so happily.
I turn away my head.
Get into the car. And started fuzzing with my brain.
Backed home . TEARS ! =') Bahahaha ~

And have a final phone call with you ...
I Cant believe what happen that day.
I was Drunked .
I Came out with my friends and drink 4 bottles of beer that equals to 7 days of fever sick.
I keep on sick these days.
Till i saw my body full of unknown scratches and pale skin .
My heart are weak says the doctor.
HELLO ? I'm strong ~ I'm a BOY !

Till today i keep fighting for my Love and not my life.
I used to suicide before because you.
Dieing because LOVE ?
Crazy ? *My sis say....
She saw my hand with the cults
"NO MORE"
she show me a dawn face.
She says she wanna know you , and tell me everythings going fine.
Tell my family members except my mum dad.
About my problem and plan to buy me a new motor.

I cry infront my sis.
She was shocked to see me crying on a sudden.
She say " Cry out more , You'll be brave later "
I really was touched ! And close my face .
Harmly ~ I look at her after crying and say Thanks.

That day on ... I keep thinking about my future .
And try to avoid love.
I start by hating love.
Hate = Love ?
Possible ?
My mind keeps running YOU there.

Not to forget , I contact Lee Kai Xin my friend . =')
Which my kakak angkat *Lee Khai Wen" eh sister .
Khai Wen jie ? Very sayang me eh ~ ='D *Lanc awhile*
I miss her too. hahax
I find Kai Xin because i believe in her that she's a better friend than the best. ;)
I called her on the day i lost my love.
She gently advice me and talk heart to heart with me.
I know ~ My stories are boring .
She need to think before talk with me.
So i know ... I'm Interupting her . Sorry harz.
But thanks for lending me your ears.
Really shankiuw ~ * plus for all the person cheering me up .

The Store sisters and brothers . <3 ! =)
Families ~ <3 <3 ! =D
Friends , And FB members . <3 wont forget your sacrifices . ^^

Well , Tiff .
I hope your Life was going well.
Without me . =(

Let me tell you what we've promise .
->

Tiffany Loo Pei Shan , do you agree to take Leon Lee King Han as ur husband ? 
no matter how hard his life is , how sad he is , how ugly he is and how poor he is. 
most important eu will love him forever and make his heart shine like a star ?
You'll never lie in a wedding.
wedding is important for a girl.
to have a good own family until old.
You promise eu will never give up on him and care him forever ?

Yes I do !!  Lets be my hubb 

Leon Lee King Han , 
do you agree be Tiffany Loo Pei Shan as ur wife ?
no matter how hard her life ,
how sad she is , 
how ugly she is , 
and how poor she is .

most important eu will love her forever and make her heart shine like a star and owes be with her?

You'll never lie in a wedding.
wedding is important for a boy too 
to have a good own family until old.
You promise eu will never give up on her and care her forever ? 

I wanna say...

我不舍得离开你.
我不习惯一天的没有你
做个朋友，对我来说是很难
做么？
因为我还爱你～
你伤我够多吃了
每次说一个东西会弄你觉得我方的时，你一定不会回信
对不起吧
要我爱别个人真的很难
如果你还是原谅不到我
那。。。。让我
慢慢地等你
和
暗恋你把
可以不？
=')
我真的不相信我在说话，哈哈！
暗恋你？
不可能的事

My aim is to give you back LOVE
and Not seek for your forgiveness !

喜欢是可以
爱是当然

退后也需要想一下
FUTURE很重要

After reading all my waste time bullshit .
I hope you understand my feelings that I know from 08/06 to 08/01
All faults start from me and ends with me.









May I step into your heart ?
I will never let you live alone anymore.







I'm too fast to act this .
Because i doesnt want to waste a Life.
AND let many boys to know such an angel spirit girl with brave heart .
IF You allow me to pleasure this chance , I will prove you what means 开心 .

Mouth might be a weapon , Yes it is .
But i trust myself . I never joke about this at you.

如果识别个人的话，他们会觉得丢脸
因为在追回很他的人
那我？
丢脸不重要
我敢跟全世界所我爱的是谁....



I Feel like a loser .
But i act like a winner.

Because when you think you can means you can.

The most important is BELIEVE and THINK .


When i know your answer , I will change .
Yes or No ?
Is In YOUR hands .

Yes = I will change the 6 months to a forever expiry date .
No = I will leave with a proud smile .




*read d , sms me . 
i have something to tell you .


09/01/2012 2.49am Completed .