My Story After Christmas .

25/12/2011
- The Day My Love Ended . ='|

The first thing is always the tears. i know i've hurt you much.
I'm sorry .
Saying sorry is too late i think ? =')
What has done has done .
I wouldnt have a rubber to rub those dirts.
I know i will just have to leave it and accept it.
But i cant.... Its hard.

I wanted you to know that forgetting you is hard.
Because i never love someone such this deep.
Its deeper than an ocean and its brighter than the sun.

Haha . Flashing back the stories we created. =')
surely : 08062011 . 2.52am .
The day i founded my wife. The day we started .
Its a great night to found my blind fate.
Eventhough its hard to forget it can please you that may i remember it forever ?
I'm proud that you may have forget it ,,, But sorry , i'm not that strong as you .
I wanted you to know that the way i love you is different than the explanation of the word I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU looks simple but its hard to pronounce .

The first day we stay on tution in BM Maran's = I sat behind you .
You asked me to come near you . I'm not dare because i'm worried the teacher might scold.
So i decide to sit behind you .
You care me too much , that makes you tear a piece of cute lil paper and wrote something on it.
I Still kept it.  ='D It says " HATE THAT I MISS YOU "
Its funny . We chit chat on the old style , passing papers together .
I kinda free so i lanc give ma pal see what i've written . He laughed and say "Haiz , Now eh people" Haha! buex ~ =P

When its 6.30pm .Tuition is over .
We've gone downstairs and pak we geh tor at Legend Inn back door.
You mum came late every Monday.
Make me worry you this 傻瓜 ~ ='( I accompany you till your mum arrive.
Cuz thats ma job !
I grab your hand tight because i never wanted to let it go .
And back home you sms in and texted " So xing fu you hold tight my hand ,I really cant live without you "
And yeah girl , you know what ? me too ~ =')
I still remember the day we kissed on that Legend Inn back door weeks after.
We've got complain . And got scold together . Sorry , To get you into some problems . =(
 Aisekk~ wo ask we too sweet ? xD
I asked my friend drove me back to the tuition and see weather you're okay.
You said you're fine . I'm not sure Honey .
When i step there , you were gone ~
I saw your car....I asked my friend to chase on . Finally, i cut pass your car and see your smiles.
Reach my friend house , I quickly text you without thinking twice.
And took a space to apologize , and even tears ,
Dear , I'm Sorry . ='(

Snap that out , another criteria ~
I know we've met quarrels kinda more than happiness .
I promise you happiness and not fighting each other ! I failed !
What you said was the truth . "You gave me tears more than smiles"
I realize. I was a Pure Failure .

But everything can change if you're willing ! Yes ! I'm Willing To Change For You !
But its seems i never see another sign of chance again.
You scold me on the last phone call.
" Final chance has been given , you can never seek it anymore."

Leon ! Face the truth ! But Girl ... I hide from the truth . I'm not dare to face it.

I'm hurt when the day we broked . You close the phone call .
I repeatedly called thru . It doesnt work .
Finally what i get was a message . "你很烦!"
I smiled . haha ~ why ?
Because i finally make you hate me .
I take the wrong step . I shouldnt keep text you and called you.
The reason i do this because I MISS YOU !

I cant believe my eyes that we've broke in a sudden .
Everybody knows we're the sweetest among.
All shook and shout .
" WHAT?! YOU'VE BROKE ? "
" Cant believe  you still love her even she doesnt wants you "
" Stop disturbing her , She's Not Yours anymore ... People doesnt want you now .. How ? "
" Forget her , bring back Our old Leon "
" Wake up , Girls are millions in these world ! "
" What happend ? Calm down . Talk to me "
" Are You Okay ? Forget the past . Let it fly "

All these words i hope it never appears .
Because IT HURTS MORE THAN A WOUND .

I know you hurt deeper than me before when we were together .
We quarrel 7 times. 4 is your break .3 Is From Me.
I shouldnt say that .
I never wanted to break .
The reason i break is to make you scared and so you may change your attitude by stop lie on me.
But the person who lied Is me.
I told you i wont find Hui San when we were together.
I find her the day we last quarrel.
Then when we get back , i doesnt wanted to lie you. I dunno how to lie.
I tell the truth . " I find her to calm myself down "
Sorry girl . I know it hurts you again. I admit Its a LIE ='(

But I never Lie About YOUR LOVE !
I cherish the love ! Its important for me ! I love you more than a family.
I Treasure everything We have in my HEART,
It never leaves me no matter what happen.

Till now , I still remember what we do and says.

Number 1 , You hate me because i couldnt accept your mum.
Its because I'm not mature to meet up your mum , I'm always speechless
If theres a chance , I will prove you that she will smile when meet me up .

Number 2 , When i outta mood i simply scold people . At that time You appeared . Sorry ! I cant control my temper and my rudeness came out .
I know you couldnt accept my rudeness . When angry rude words must come out eh ? I know I know . I musnt . Angry just say angry . No need L****** sana L****** sini ! Shit you Leon !!!!!

Number 3 , Is Racing , I always race motor and dont care what you said.
Until i make myself "Wanted In Pokok Asam " . Polis searching for my motor. Now ?
Enggai lurhz . Motor hilang d.... Now buy new motor . I got guai ... But kena polis again because my exhaust . Sorry okay ? I shouldnt race anymore ! I QUIT ! I know its dangerous ! I KNOW ! I KNOW ! Damn it ! I REALLY UNDERSTAND YOU CARE I GOT INTO ACCIDENT !

Number 4 , Is The Way I treat you . You get angry when I close your calls and Doesnt allow you to talk to males. BUT ... As a bf , you know we boys hate to see their gf talk so much to the other boys , I snatch you ID and hides it from you so you wont talk to them . It really happens that , Alex Ng Wey Hern Suddenly loves you back ! You see ! Thats why i told you NOT to talk to boys ! ='( 

Is that my mistake too ?!!
Sorry . I shouted. I cant stand it.
Plus , I know you loves to get LIKES from friends . You want more ... I gave but I doesnt support you accepting boys add. I promise you before ... I know .
" You want accept jiu accept bah but dont talk to them yar "
Finally i broke it , and say " CNT CNT CNT ! NO boys means NO Boys ! "

Number 5 , I doesnt allow you to wear shorts .
Why ? Because everytime you wear shorts people who pass by look down straight to your legs . Its Uncormfatable ! I HATE IT ! HAMSAP EYES !
I really cant accept it. This is not a fashion show . Its humans privacy! I hate them! Babi ! Hamsap Mia orang !
Arh jie ~ *Annie* Also scold you , She asked me not to allow you wear shorts .
She say x ngam you . wear also wear too short d. Cannot harap . She throw a fierce face to me and say " You must tell Pei Shan to stop wearing shorts , not banned her from wearing , if wanted to wear too.. dont wear too short . That short sangat eh , keep and wear inside house enough"
I obey her.
You also promised me to stay away from wearing shorts .
I heard... But you lied me many times .Wear shorts you can beh tong ? ><!
Even go singapore , your biao jie uploaded the photo .
Give me see tiok you wear shorts , I straight dissapointed and angry aswell.
I really wanted to scold but i'm afraid of scolding you too much .
because my temper.
So i doesnt wanna scold so fierce and took your short haired photo and upload it.
Remember ~ I dont care your photo , I care your people .
I dont care your hair , Hair can grow ...
I cut short d... And i hated it too.. But this is style , i can still change . =')
You still liang like always.

Haiz ~

SAYA SUDAH MELAMPAU ~ !
='(

Everything I say I know because I really Understand .
I'm big enough to make my own decision and Think about other parties.
I'm 17 . Seventeen Not Seven years old anymore.
My name is LEE KING HAN not a children anymore.

Add on what i do too .
I took your short haired pic and upload without you knowing it..
At last you scold me .

Few hours later , I took it down .
I know , what i did is too much.
I delete it and Put on my favorite picha of you.

Your message came in , You asked me see the picha Maxxy gave me.
AWAITS i go.

Days later , Maxxy shows it.
I was happy , You finally have new pic.
So i kept it inside my Profile Picture,

On Christmas , Things Started to change...
I bought a Jacket and A Key-Chain for you.
As my sincere gift for X-Mas .
It turns upside down on night.
I saw you in the car outside The Store with you family.
Your mum says you were in KL ?
KL ? =')
What i see in my eye is you in the car talking with your mum so happily.
I turn away my head.
Get into the car. And started fuzzing with my brain.
Backed home . TEARS ! =') Bahahaha ~

And have a final phone call with you ...
I Cant believe what happen that day.
I was Drunked .
I Came out with my friends and drink 4 bottles of beer that equals to 7 days of fever sick.
I keep on sick these days.
Till i saw my body full of unknown scratches and pale skin .
My heart are weak says the doctor.
HELLO ? I'm strong ~ I'm a BOY !

Till today i keep fighting for my Love and not my life.
I used to suicide before because you.
Dieing because LOVE ?
Crazy ? *My sis say....
She saw my hand with the cults
"NO MORE"
she show me a dawn face.
She says she wanna know you , and tell me everythings going fine.
Tell my family members except my mum dad.
About my problem and plan to buy me a new motor.

I cry infront my sis.
She was shocked to see me crying on a sudden.
She say " Cry out more , You'll be brave later "
I really was touched ! And close my face .
Harmly ~ I look at her after crying and say Thanks.

That day on ... I keep thinking about my future .
And try to avoid love.
I start by hating love.
Hate = Love ?
Possible ?
My mind keeps running YOU there.

Not to forget , I contact Lee Kai Xin my friend . =')
Which my kakak angkat *Lee Khai Wen" eh sister .
Khai Wen jie ? Very sayang me eh ~ ='D *Lanc awhile*
I miss her too. hahax
I find Kai Xin because i believe in her that she's a better friend than the best. ;)
I called her on the day i lost my love.
She gently advice me and talk heart to heart with me.
I know ~ My stories are boring .
She need to think before talk with me.
So i know ... I'm Interupting her . Sorry harz.
But thanks for lending me your ears.
Really shankiuw ~ * plus for all the person cheering me up .

The Store sisters and brothers . <3 ! =)
Families ~ <3 <3 ! =D
Friends , And FB members . <3 wont forget your sacrifices . ^^

Well , Tiff .
I hope your Life was going well.
Without me . =(

Let me tell you what we've promise .
->

Tiffany Loo Pei Shan , do you agree to take Leon Lee King Han as ur husband ? 
no matter how hard his life is , how sad he is , how ugly he is and how poor he is. 
most important eu will love him forever and make his heart shine like a star ?
You'll never lie in a wedding.
wedding is important for a girl.
to have a good own family until old.
You promise eu will never give up on him and care him forever ?

Yes I do !!  Lets be my hubb 

Leon Lee King Han , 
do you agree be Tiffany Loo Pei Shan as ur wife ?
no matter how hard her life ,
how sad she is , 
how ugly she is , 
and how poor she is .

most important eu will love her forever and make her heart shine like a star and owes be with her?

You'll never lie in a wedding.
wedding is important for a boy too 
to have a good own family until old.
You promise eu will never give up on her and care her forever ? 

I wanna say...

我不舍得离开你.
我不习惯一天的没有你
做个朋友，对我来说是很难
做么？
因为我还爱你～
你伤我够多吃了
每次说一个东西会弄你觉得我方的时，你一定不会回信
对不起吧
要我爱别个人真的很难
如果你还是原谅不到我
那。。。。让我
慢慢地等你
和
暗恋你把
可以不？
=')
我真的不相信我在说话，哈哈！
暗恋你？
不可能的事

My aim is to give you back LOVE
and Not seek for your forgiveness !

喜欢是可以
爱是当然

退后也需要想一下
FUTURE很重要

After reading all my waste time bullshit .
I hope you understand my feelings that I know from 08/06 to 08/01
All faults start from me and ends with me.









May I step into your heart ?
I will never let you live alone anymore.







I'm too fast to act this .
Because i doesnt want to waste a Life.
AND let many boys to know such an angel spirit girl with brave heart .
IF You allow me to pleasure this chance , I will prove you what means 开心 .

Mouth might be a weapon , Yes it is .
But i trust myself . I never joke about this at you.

如果识别个人的话，他们会觉得丢脸
因为在追回很他的人
那我？
丢脸不重要
我敢跟全世界所我爱的是谁....



I Feel like a loser .
But i act like a winner.

Because when you think you can means you can.

The most important is BELIEVE and THINK .


When i know your answer , I will change .
Yes or No ?
Is In YOUR hands .

Yes = I will change the 6 months to a forever expiry date .
No = I will leave with a proud smile .




*read d , sms me . 
i have something to tell you .


09/01/2012 2.49am Completed .